Finally, finally, finally....

The funeral is over and done with, now we are waiting for 100 days and then we're bringing the ashes and scatter it in the sea (I think, maybe we're taking the boat out, maybe, nothing is set in stone yet.) And we are finally being left alone, for the most part, which is a good thing, because I had about all I can handle of running around and seeing so many people that had so many things to say, and none that I wanna hear.

I prefer being left alone and deal with our own mess than having people's noses in our business. If I need help, I'll ask for it. Now we are starting to find out how much of a mess my father had made. I think my mother would definitely drag him out to smack him around if she could.

Enough of that though, what ever gonna happen will happen. Nothing we can do about it but deal when the time comes.

Finally all my bookshelves were delivered today, and instead of calling me so I know they were coming, so I can take a look and see if they were all to my order, noooooooo... I found out when I got home that they didn't put the locks on for me. So, I'll have to call them over again to take care of that. This gonna suck, I just knew.

I moved some of my manga out to the shelves already, but I'm not sure if it was a good idea, after all, we have 3 small kids in the house, last thing I need is for one of them to start dragging my manga out. If it happened whoever babysit at the time is a dead meat.

Gina is back! And I'm very happy about that, I've been wondering what happen to her, but now she's back and sounds like she's doing well. I think I'm gonna get back to drawing and photo manip and stuff now, maybe that'll help me along in my writing too, since it's been rather slow lately.

But then with all the shit that's been going on, can you blame me?

Anyhow, tomorrow is another day and I got some cleaning to do, most of the manga and small paperbacks will be in the new shelves, probably gonna move little by little, besides I wanna know when they are coming to put in the locks, because I don't wanna risk it.

Funeral, exhaustion, friends you can count on, people you wanna deck...

So, finally after over a month of agony and confusion and hopes and disappointment, and 15 days in the hospital, my father passed.

He was going to turn full 57 next month. A bit too quick, yes I know, but he hadn't been paying attention to his liver for years now. Had he done what the doctor told him to do, we might've caught it much much earlier, but what is done is done.

No use crying over spilled milk.

Anyway, he's not suffering anymore. I had a thought that maybe he was waiting for my grandmother to drop by, because the night she came to see him and she stayed with my mom and my aunt to watch him that night, he passed bright and early in the morning.

Mom called at 6:33 AM. to tell me that he's gone.

Sad, yes, but I feel better knowing he's not hurting anymore.

Now we are left to deal with a lot of things, including the mess he left behind. If my mother could, she would probably smack him around some for some of the shit he pulled.

But that aside, I'm so sick of all the people already, I can't wait for it to be over. They were all, tradition blah blah blah... I'm like, the death don't care! Everything is for the living, and they aren't even for us, the family that should be grieving, instead we have to deal with these people. More than half of these people showed up, I don't even know. But whatever.

My friends came as their respective jobs allowed, and I appreciated that. One of them came to help out since the first day, and another is coming back again tomorrow morning, she had to leave after Wed, because work needed to get done, and she's coming back again for the cremation.

They are trying to be there for me. I'm trying to figure out if I'm still in that stage that the whole thing is in suspend, because I don't have time, or I'm just all cried out since he was first diagnosed.

I'll keep myself occupied, with one thing or another, it'll pass. All the bad things will pass and I'm hoping we don't get buried neck deep in crap before it's over.

New thing to watch, sick friend

I'm watching Ugly Betty.

Well, it wasn't my intention to really watch this show, I normally don't watch these kind of show, because I like it better when someone dies in my show. LOL.

Thus, the Criminal Minds, CSI, Medium, Ghost Whisperer, Supernatural etc.

Like that's a surprise, right?

At least I'm starting to write, a little bit, which is really a good thing.

It's Chinese New Year today, and so far no one gives me red envelop yet. *sigh* I guess I'm getting nothing again this year.

Life just sink a little lower to another level. *sniff*

Anyhow, I've been dubbing Ugly Betty season 1 that I've tapped to my friend. She liked it, and now I'm watching season 2. Although, I do feel that if I watch a lot of episodes of something so close together, I'll get sick of it, and I won't finish it.

Which happened before.

Anyway.

I was chatting with a friend the other night, not my usual early morning time, just late at night (before midnight, let's say) And while I was chatting (with my bluetooth headset on) I go under my desk to tie up my wires and cables over again. I used the metallic blue twist tie (decorative ribbon, they said on the paper roll) And well, I just didn't like how it doesn't hold really tight (It would if I did it in the first place and not just do it after the fact) and so I took those out and just use the zip tie.

Someone asked why don't I use something that can be take out and put back again, like velcro. Really, people. How often do you think you gonna change the location of a modem? Power strip? Printer?

Velcro is considerably more expensive than zip tie, zip tie is cheap and quite strong, I can't justify the extra spending on something I probably never gonna change the location ever again. Or if I do, it'll be long, long while yet. So, what's a few ziptie.

I cut a few already, and probably gonna be another few more that gets cut. I bought all sizes, shortest, short, medium, long, overkilled? Maybe. LOL.

But it's useful.

Save me the clutter of all the tangled wires, and dust that collected there.

I told a friend that I'll do it for her, she said let her get settled first, and that was, what... almost six months now?

Well, she's sick, right now. First fever, now cold. She needs to get exercising some, it'll help. Speaking of working out. I should too. But I'm feeling like I'm getting a flu.. it's weird. But what else is new...

Really, really sleepy now.

Hey Cin!

Happy Chinese New Year.

Watching : Premonition

OK, I know I should be paying more attention to the movie, since I've turned it on for the 2nd time without really watching (no, I didn't finish the first time either.)

I'm gonna do a new layout for the blog as well as the homepage, because it's been a really long while that I did anything remotely creative. (yeah, ok, a really long while isn't even begin to cover it)

Saw Rush Hour 3 last night with 2 of my friends (no, I don't have that many, and I'd rather have a handful of friends than a bunch of people that will only share in your glory but never misery)

Another friend of mine is currently stressed to the max, what with her mother's problem that she had to take on and other things, if she'd told me about the renting earlier than she did (maybe only 2 days earlier) She would've been moving in and settled by now (well, we may have to fix a lot of things before that I'm not sure of the state of the house, since I haven't seen it yet) As far as I know, the bathroom needs work, but it'll still be done before this (been what, 2 months?)

Anyhow, we'll see what happens, she was suppose to be moving since 2 days ago, and I was suppose to go help her clean, but well, didn't happen yet, although, there's another place she's looking into.

Well, best of luck I guess.

I went and picked up Rayearth vol. 1, MAR vol. 9, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles season 2 vol. 3.

Now, I'll have to get Magic Knight Rayearth since I never really get them in the first place, I guess I could have my aunt pick them up for me.

What do I want.. um..

I do want a pair of new shoes. (Dr. Marten's, possibly) a new jacket, I guess I'll have her pick them up for me, and if she has space left then it's MEDIUM, Supernatural. I want Spiderman 3 dvd and Pirates of the Caribbean 3 but they come out the end of Oct, which will be too late. Oh yeah and Harry Potter boxset (7 books) If it's not too heavy that is.

Um... what should I tell her... grrrrrrrrr..