Status: watching Figure Skate
Listen: the TV

never look for anyone
never pay attention to people around me
never open my eyes and see
that they could be...
that maybe I would find someone

and then...
there was you

that one person I've never looked for
that one person that I've never hoped to find
you...

like seeing shiny new toy
you picked me up
took me for a ride

that one person I've never looked for
that one person that I've never hoped to find

is it too late now
are you bored with me?
sick of me?

cause I am...
all beaten up and broken
and I am...
sitting in the corner
only waiting

is it too late now
are you sick of me?
is it too late to tell you
the one thing that I...
have never been able to say...

so afraid of what you would do
if you know
what you would say
if you know
those words...

that one person that I've never looked for
that one person that I've never hoped to find
you...

is it too late now?
are you sicked of me?
will it be too late to say
that I...
love you...

Status: still exhausted
Listen: Morpheus Laughing [ Skinny Puppy ]

'It took me a minute to want her, a day to love her, months to fall in love with her, and it will take a life time to forget her but I never will... Sometimes the most overlooked quality is the fact the person loves you'

Status: Exhausted
Listen: Amnesia [ Skinny Puppy ]

Schedule today was of Monday instead of the normal schedule, and so I had papermaking at 8 AM. And I spent the morning with my hands in the water, after scrapping my knuckles on the scrapper and the copperplate, yup, my hands hurt now. And I'm still depressed, so it's not a good idea for me to use anything sharp or pointy. She didn't call me back last night, I guess it was tedious to call and talk to me. I'm in a dog house now and foreseeable future. If I'm that bad why doesn't she just forget about it. Say goodbye now or in a year won't make much different if I bring her that much annoyance. Maybe saying goodbye now will save her some sanity and time, don't have to waste her time on me anymore.

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