Got new volume of Air Gear today, as well as K2 and Double Souls.

My car is in the garage for some fixing today. No, I didn't crash it or side swipe anything really. More like someone else did it to mine while I was in the movie months before and since my insurance was about to be up for the year I just took it in to claim so, they gonna have to repaint most of it.

Now I'm without car for the next 8-10 days. Kinda suck really, cause I had to take my motorcyle to the gym today. I booked the squash for 9pm and I got there 30 min early and there was no one there, so I guess someone only played for 30 min. I went in and proceeded to beat the crap out of the rubber ball for almost an hour before my friend came in and told me it was raining!

Long story short, I left and well got wet on my way home. At least it didn't pour, just a little drizzle.

I'm writing Marimite/Sobakkasu xover, why, because I wanted to. LOL.

I loved Ogasawara Sachiko and Shigeyoshi Minako and being the freak that I am, I wrote them up as a pair. Not finish but well, I'll keep going till I feel like stopping.

Hey Cin!!

How ya doing?

How's everything?

I'm back to listening to some Taking Back Sunday now.

Watching : nothing really... more like listening

I'm just eatching, I'm starving that I actually get an egg over easy ( don't really like sunny side up) and some white rice. Yeah... desperate.

I'm writing, well, not my usual stuff at the moment. I've just finished reading Sobukkasu by Kikuchi Shouta again, and I love Shigeyoshi Minago. It was awesome. So, I'm writing Sachiko/Minago just because they are so different. LOL.. Hopefully I can pull that one off.

Why this pair??

Cause I'm a freak, and I just like taking 2 characters that had nothing to do with each other and put them together.

My DSL at home still not very usable... thus dial up at the store.. it sucks!!! So I'm thinking getting DSL at the store now. So I can read all day!!!!

Watching : nothing really, just left the tv droning in the background

On Sat I went and dragged my friend to the next town to get some books, manga really, and she said ok. We both figured that I would be the one that spent the most money on this little trip, but as it turned out, she spent more than I did, due to the fact that she bought 2 sets of some Chinese series. Why would she wanna buy them is beyond me, seeing how she's going on the retreat right the next day.

I got a bunch of Manga, even got 1st Volume of Strawberry Panic. Not that I'm all that fawn of shoujo, but it's Shoujo-ai so it's all good, even if it's a little on the silly side. :)

Man, I would love to get Marimite manga, except I can't read Japanese. Although I did say to my friend that if they get here, I still wouldn't have known, cause I never look at that section anyway. Normall, I like action and blood guts and gore in my manga.. (look up Berserk, Hellsing) Some extreme emotional situation also good too, a bit of psychological thriller. :)

But then I'm also happy with Yuri...

Read another one 'Line' by Yua Kotegawa.

It's a oneshot. With Yuri subtext, the story was pretty good.

I think I'm getting too many at one time and what happen is that I would read the one I wanted to get in the first place and the rest will get put aside till a lot later. :) Actually, the best thing I should do is getting one set at the time and so I wouldn't put anything on hold for a long time. I already had at least 3 sets of manga unread, so I should really get to it.

Watching : Missing

I've been sick like a dog for the past couple of weeks. Last week I went to the gym and decided that I wanna play squash, and so, while my friends were in the pool treading water (they weren't really swimming, just made good impression of it. LOL) I went and played for about 30 min, and well, right the next day I was running fever again. Really, I'm tired of this. *sigh*

I've been watching Marimite over again, and well, I really really like Sachiko. LOL.

I'm at that state where one character is just so cute to me and I'll read and and I'll watch and I'll read and I'll watch again. FUN!

I'm hoping for 3rd season of the series, I'm not really looking forward to the show with just Yumi but whatever happens. Seems like later issue of novel has less of Sachiko... *sniff*

Watching : American Chopper

I just got back from my friend's place, we went out and then hung out till 2am. LOL. Yesterday I got me an Iomega Screen Play (portable harddrive) It can play media file right out of the thing, so I got it. I asked my dad and he said ok. :) (big plus, cause I don't have the money) I spent nearly an hour just to figure out how exactly I can get it to work. The damn start guide was of no help at all. It didn't say what it should've said in the first place that the drive has to be in FAT32 or it won't work on the tv... and it didn't mention it one bit, so I had to go on the website and read through a bunch of stuff to figure that one out. Prior to that I was renaming files and check the file type and all that crap. It was pissing me off. The actual solution took me less than 5 minutes. They should've state it in the first place.

Stupid quick start guide. I wanna know who write these things?

I wanna strangle them.

But now I get the thing and I was watching a bunch of stuff on it so it's ok... I'm happy for now. Next I'm making a box to carry it with (the drive, remote, cables) :)

so, it's been a while. I've been busy, but then what else is new, same shit different day. My lcd screen broke down about a week ago, so I had to get a new one, this one is 19" wide screen, it's cool, but still I didn't have the money to spend on this, at least not right now anyway, but well, neccessity and all that.

Got a new printer cause the old one just doesn't work anymore, it's a good thing they are cheaper than they used to be. ALso got a new Wacom Graphite4, it's silver. I've been wanting to get a new one for a while, cause I only have one that it suck getting it back and fort between home and store, good to get a new one so I get one for both machine.

So, now I'm broke.

My friend let me borrow some books, forgot to bring them from her place. LOL. I let her borrow some of my manga, Dragon Voice, Kurogo, Cardcaptor Sakura, Q detective school and I got some Fullmetal Alchemist back from her. Now I wanna get Pigmario by Wada Shinji maybe I can get them used, it'd be cheaper. And maybe Glass Mask too.

So, I know I said that my cellphone was dead, but well, today, it is well and truely not coming back. And after I realized that in the morning, my dad managed to broke the damn 2 numbers in the store.. we couldn't use the phone the entire day and probably tomorrow as well.

My mother said that tomorrow she'll drop in so I could go see to a new phone. Well, news flash I don't have enough money for it. I told her so, and I asked if she gonna get me one, she said no. So, what's the damn point of her dropping in so I can go look for a new phone, 'cause I can't buy a new phone now anyway. Wouldn't make a different if I go see it tomorrow or on Saturday, I still can't get a new cellphone.

I wanted O2 and I was saving up money for it, now I don't have enough money yet, I was hoping my nokia would last another month or two. Man, when it rains it pours.

What's been happening.... oh, several things I guess.

My phone is dead.. yeah, well and truely and I couldn't even get a new one. I've been saving up money, wanting a new printer first, I'm sick of the one I have, it just won't cooperate with me, seemed to be something wrong everytime I turned it on, so I gave up. Fixing it just didn't seem to worth the time and money, so a new one, besides printers are not really expensives these days. Of course, things just had to go wrong.

My damn cellphone started to act up several weeks before, at first I thought that the battery ran out when it shut itself down for no reason, then 'start-up failed' message showed up when I tried to use it. Now, it doesn't even have the courtesy to start at all. So, I'll be incommunicado which is bad, not that it would bother my parents, since they never call me anyhow.

I asked my mother if she could get me a new one, the answer was : NO. So, my other alternative was save up money to buy a new one and I have every intention to do that, except the damn phone broke before I have enough.

I thought coming home would mean less stress over this crap, when my things break down I can get a new one without worrying that I won't have enough money to last me a semester, now I know it's worse. So, next month, I'll probably have to forget about books that I wanna get and movies I wanna see. I fucking hate my life.

Watching : Nothing really

Well, I haven't been in the gym at all for 4 days straight, a friend of mine that has been going with me had some kinda seminar for 2 days and Saturday night I was just way too tired. I got Jack in Santa suit and Sally with Sawing Machine on Wed when I went to see X-Men 3 and then Saturday we went to do some shopping (mostly grocery) and I picked up Victor and Emily figures.

I went to the gym and we played Badminton, and then afterward it's squash, I booked the court again for tomorrow night at 9 cause I can't go any earlier. Kinda suck really, but what can ya do. I'm getting the hang of it now, so I can actually hit for a while without chasing the ball around too much.

Hopefully I'll get better. LOL.

Working on the new layout for crypticrain. Almost there, just a few more things and it's up.

I've been writing too, so that's a good thing. There are 5 stories altogether that I'm currently writing, I might get one finish in a day or two to post. :) Maybe I'll post it when I update the layout. :)

Watching : CSI: New York

I went and saw The DaVinvi code on the 24th and I got Micah by Laurell K. Hamilton the same night. The movie was good, although it was almost 3 hours, I'd love to see the uncut version though (I mean the one with all the deleted scenes and such) They had some protesting here for it not to be shown, but then religion and business.. I never like people that thinks they should tell other people what to do, what to see, what to read and what to listen to. I think people like that are arrogant to think that they know better than anyone. You can't presumed to know what's best for everyone.

When they couldn't get the theater to stop showing they wanted to cut out the last 10 minutes, of course that didn't happen, the fact which I'm happy about. Just people you don't wanna watch it, doesn't mean you can tell other people not to see it. They should just up and die.

The movie was great, I can't wait to see it again.

Next I'll be waiting for X-Men 3 : The Last Stand.

I finished Micah the next day. I'm starting to get real sick of the whole the more men the merrier of Anita. It gets tedious just reading about her indecision and I was happier reading when it was just her and JC and Richard, and the rest are just annoying.

watching : nothing

I tried to get in last night and well, it just won't load for me so i gave up. I finally got in!!

I got The OC season 3 and The L Word season 2 today, and finally picked up that copy of HP:tGoF today. Afterwards, my aunt asked me to take her to pick up some shampoo and conditioner that we use in the apartment and so we stopped at the home products center thing, I got a small rug for my comp desk (my hardwood floor can't take the wheels of the chair), got a desk lamp too, cause only one of the desk has lamp, and I intended to use the other one drawing and cutting stuff, I just can't do it here, the keyboard was in the way.

I found a site for flatpack toy.. www.readymech.fwis.com good stuff

Watching : CSI

I'm getting a set of Winsor&Newton color ink and some new nibs. I lost a whole box of them when I used them as a still life piece. Kinda suck.

I'm looking to get a dvd recorder, not sure if I'll be able to, I kinda want to record some show and stuff.. I'm looking forward to SuperNatural and Hex. :) But I can also load those, so we'll see how it goes.

I'm working on a new layout for crypticrain getting closer all the time, I just need to arrange some stuff and type in some details and such. It'll look good once it's done, I hope. :) I need to do some collaging as well as drawing, I want to, otherwise I won't do anything at all. I'm still reading DaVinci Code, I was reading the ebook till I sent my ipaq in for some repair, now I guess I'll have to reread from the top. should be fun.

watching : Psychic Witness

I went to the vid rental store today to returned what I rented yesterday, which were Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and Doom. I intented to go earlier in the day, like in the afternoon instead of at night, but well, my mom decided to play hooky today so I got stuck at the store all day. It was quiet. Water Festival started on the 13th, however in northern part they play as early as the 11th. They usually play on the 18th and 19th here but well, they seem to be starting early this year cause they started playing now!

I found Dennis the Manace and Death to Smoochie!!! I loved those movies! I couldn't believe it, so I rented them both, I guess I'll figure a way to dub them and keep 'em since they don't have 'em for sell.

I'm figuring out some javascript so I can use it on my new layout, yeah figuring out cause I was too dumb to take the class while I was in school. I'm just not good with the stuff, the best I can do is trial and error as I try using them. Can't write them to save my life. LOL

I saw a spot for 'Supernatural' and it looks pretty good. I can't wait to see it. I'm watching Ghostwhisperer and Medium and CSI currently. Got Airgear ep 1 and 2 too... should be fun.

Watching : First Wives Club

Saw Ultraviolet today, it was fun!!! I loved it! Of couse the story was a little weak, action sequence makes up for it though. So they end up being vampire... interesting. I wanna see it again, probably the dvd, not in theater, don't have time as it is.

My dad asked if my laptop was good, and if it has other language, I said nope, it's pretty old now, he said he might buy me a new one (asked the price and everything) or something to that effect. Well, right now I can't get one for myself anyhow... BROKE... that's me.

After that 42" plasma tv, I'm still coughing up money to pay him back. Money don't grow on tree, ya know... which is too bad. LOL.

Bed time.. man I'm exhausted.

listening : Goodbye My Lover [James Blunt]

I went and see Inside Man last night, it was 10:10pm show, and I was gonna go by myself, since none of my friends could make it, but then I came home and well, the girl that works at the front here just finished her shift, so I dragged her instead. She's cool about these kind of crap, she didn't even know which movie I was going. LOL

I can't wait to see Ultraviolet though.. man, it's gonna be so good. And also Ice Age 2 : The Melt Down and Basic Instinct 2 good movies!!

So I guess maybe this weekend or if I can get my mom to let me go, tomorrow afternoon. LOL.

Otherwise I'll be going to see Ultraviolet next week. I don't like going to the movie during the weekend, the thought of me having to fight for a seat just isn't so appealing, been there done that, although I rarely see a movie that is completely fill to the brim with people, I just don't like people, they are inconsidered and on a few occasions I sat near those people that think they are the only one in the theater, talking loud, eating loud, giving blow by blow comment to each other, I wanna kill those people.

Anyhow, I'm working on a new layout for Crypticrain.com and I think I'm gonna centralized it, my fanfic sites, my blog my other miscellaneous stuff gonna be all there, so it'll be easy to find, or rather easier for me to keep track of.

It's almost done, just getting the html files ready and so, tomorrow at the store I'll try to do that, while I write the fics too... yeah I've been writing, not a lot in one sitting but it's pretty good, better than what I've been managed when I wait to get home to write anyway. I have enough to post now I think, just a bit of fine tuning and we got a post!

Hey Cin, how ya doing???

Listening : X-Mas [Sevendust]

so I'm updating my IPod nano, I got the lanyard in-ear headphone the day before. I should've gotten it from commart thinggie, but I was too busy looking for a silicone case that I forgot about it till I get home, which mean I had to get it later, which meant that I had to pay more for it than if I bought it at the convention.

My dad sold a building (um...I believe it called block building... just 1 room) and so the money got tranferred into my account the week before I went to the convention and thus I had enough money to get me a new laptop if I wanted. They got lots of them too, but I like buying these stuff from people that can answer my question, so I didn't get any, and I told my mother that I would've use some money for the new laptop she asked why didn't I, I said I don't wanna listen to her bitching at me, and also I didn't have much confident in those people to be paying that much money on something that expensive to find that it didn't work out so well. So I'll get it somewhere else I can get them to take responsibility if something went wrong. LOL

I better get my ass to bed, life still suck and I can only ignore everyone else around me.

Listening : Send the Pain Below [chevelle]

I went to ComMart thinggie in Bangkok today, I kinda expected it to be bigger, with more stuff, but it wasn't, so it was kinda disappointing, but I got me an Ipod Nano 2GB ( I wanted 4GB, but well, honestly, I don't think I'd be using all those space, I mean, I don't even fill up the 2gb with what I wanna listen to, sure I could fill it up, but will I listen to all of them? nope)

I got IPod Nano and Sony 1gb flash drive, a silicone sleeve for the ipod, that's it. so little for such a big effort. But at least I get to see my friends, so it was all right.

I better get my ass in bed, I'm tired.

Watching : Judging Amy

well, I don't know what to watch right now, thus Judging Amy.

I got my 42" Plasma screen tv on Saturday so it's a big happy, and no, my parents weren't gonna pay it for me, they just gonna front me the money. So, I'll be pinching pennies for the next say.... year?

My mother said, why don't I put it out in the living room so everybody else can watch it too.. I was like, if I was to be the one to cough up the money for it, then it's gonna be in my room, cause the next thing I know they'll be bitching at me for monopolizing it out there too... can't win, can I?

I brought out my 29" tv out to the livingroom though, the one that was in there before was smaller. Anyhow, I like my new toy, make me happy for a while. I can watch movie without feeling like it's so tight on the screen anymore.

Watching : Judging Amy

Today I dropped Gizmo off for a bath, he has to have one at least once a week, and I have to drop him off at the petshop to do it, cause well, he got so much fur now it takes hours to dry him off, thus paying someone else to do it. Then the girl at the store noticed that his eye's hurt.

Well, so it's to the vet next, got some eyedrop and he's been playing to his sick role ever since.

What a butthead.

He's been sleeping all day though.

I got all Blue Sonnet loaded this morning. I'm waiting for Cat's Eye, I use to read that manga and I had all 10 vol of it, but then well, I wasn't here, things got moved and disappeared. So now I'll have to buy them all over again, if they still have it in print or reprint.

I guess watching the anime will have to do for a while, I found that most of the time anime is pretty close to the manga, well, pretty close isn't exactly the same, but you get the gist and they are just as enjoyable. :)

Actually, I should be going to bed right about now... so I'm gonna do that while I let my ppc charge. Forgot to do it last night and the night before so now it's completely dead. lol... so much for keeping all my appointment current.

March 1st, Gizmo's appointment.

Watching : Medium

I bought a new PPC yesterday afternoon, it's an IPaq Hx2490 I wanted the other one which is a 6300 series, but they were discontinued and they don't have them in stock either. Too bad, it would've been perfect. Anyhow, this one is good for what I want it for. I was gonna go with the other one, hx2790, it looks exactly the same as 2490 with the exception of having more bell and whistle ( ie biometic fingerprint reader, now what am I gonna do with that??)

Well, I got my doctor's appointment all loaded up and some reading. A few notes to remind myself (like electric bill, water bill, cheque I need to write, that sorta crap) Now I'm saving up for a new laptop, cause I want one!

I'm so bad with these stuffs, I swear, sometimes I don't know what I want them for anyway. But I definitely can use a PPC even if just to remind me to do stuff like actually get my rabie shots on time. I almost miss one just last week.

Oh yeah, I got bit by a strayed the Saturday before last and well, spent my evening in the ER, getting a couple of shots and my wounds dressed ( 5 fangs ) Had little use of my right arm till the last couple of days, it's better now though, still hurting a bit, and my arm would ache from shoulder down, but it'll go away eventually. Well, I hope.

Ok, back to Medium.

Listening : Burn [ Alkaline Trio ]

I got bitten by a stray dog yesterday evening, 5 fang marks and some bleeding. I was heading out to bookstore anyway, so I just went out, my mother didn't even know I was bitten. I got to the hospital, waiting for a while cause they were swamped. Would you believe that? Anyway, I got shots and they dressed my wounds, recommended a serum I should get cause I got bitten on my right elbow but they were out of that one, so I had to go to the other hospital, I didn't go right then cause well, I was having a hard time bending my elbow and my should ached.

When I got home I found that I've lost my keys as well.

Beautiful day, really.. I mean.. I coulda kill for a day like that. (yeah, right!!)

So, today I went and get that damn serum, cost me pretty penny too. But I can claim with the insurance so it's ok.

Now, shower time, oh joy...

Watching : Outbreak

Yeah, I'm watching Outbreak, I never get to buy that dvd but everytime I saw it on any channel I watch it. I should really buy it the next time I see it on the shelve.

I've noticed something about these kids in my family... well, my brother my sister my cousins.. blah blah blah.. they have no repect for anyone or anyone's time. I told my brother to shut the hell up last night, he has to go over to my aunt's and he was watching cartoon till 10pm and when he got into the livingroom he kept saying let's go now. I told him shut up and until he can get his ass places by himself then he has no right to be rushing anyone, especially when he draged his ass in the first place. Fucking spoiled I'd say.

If I have my way he'd be in boarding school till he finish highschool, so he knows to do shit for himself.

This just annoys the hell out of me, I don't like people like that. You don't do anything and generally being a useless piece of flesh and still demand they get their way. Fuck that shit.

Watching : Animal Police

I'm planning on going to see Underworld : Evolution tomorrow evening, that if my mother isn't incapacitated by the dentist, she has an appoinment at 1 PM tomorrow, new set of teeth.. LOL she had an artificial roots implanted about 3 months ago, so now they are trying on some teeth.

Today is Chinese New Year, yeah... usually I got money in red envelop (well about 10 years ago) Now I get zip... Oh well. I was hoping maybe my dad's gonna give me some so I can get a new PPC, since my mother took mine, she plays solitair on it.

I'm guessing I'll get nothing.

Life suck man...

I got my car for a little over three months now, so it's time for the first service. I've been debating for ever, whether I wanna get it to Honda dealer for it, they offered the first service for free, it's either first 3 months or 1,000 miles.. and well, I don't have the time to be sitting on my ass for hours on end to wait for a free service. So I called up my uncle and ask about the garage he usually goes to. And I went with my aunt today. Pretty quick, I'd say, even with the time it took to drive there, which was not that far considering I use to drove farther than that for when I was in Methuen.

I got Rozen Maiden, the entire first season loaded, and still didn't watch it yet. I guess I will later. Also got the second too, and didn't watch it. MAR ep 27, hell, I hadn't watched the thing since ep 10. I'll get time to see it eventually.

I'm waiting for Underworld : Evolution. :) It'd be great.

Ok, time for shower and I'll be all set to watch Medium.

Watching : Monk

It's my birthday today, and it's just as shitty as any other day. Big surprise! We closed the store today around 6:30PM well, actually I would've to stay till maybe 8PM except we lost power for almost an hour, so we packed up and get ready to leave, but once we're finished and were closing the door, the power came back on!

What did I get for my birthday?

Well, some shirts... exactly 2, flowers, what the hell am I gonna do with flowers?

What did I get for Christmas?

Nothing

New year?

Nothing

Great year so far ain't it?

Watching : CSI : Miami

My dad is out of town, AGAIN. It gets annoying, I mean I do understand that he wants to stop working and all that shit, but then he's the one that created all that problem so he's gotta stay and fix the goddamn thing! I'm so sick with my family. I told him I should've come back, he said I shouldn't say that.

Why not??

Ever since I got back it's problem and I didn't cause it, everyone else did. I wanna be left by myself. I just want everyone to leave me alone, just drop dead and I'll be happy.

I don't need them, I really don't.

And they ask what do I have to be stressed about!!

What don't I have to be stressed about??!!

Fucking hate them.

Watching : Monk

My friends left this morning, which is kinda sad, I mean, I don't usually have anyone to complain to. Let's face it, nobody would've understand my ranting anyway. We all ended up sleeping and let the movie watched us everynight. Just couldn't keep our eyes open. LOL

I got them to play "Paint Doctor" with me, it was fun, I hadn't played it for so long I forgot all the rules and I had to figure it out all over again. I mean the damn directions they gave me wasn't all that clear. Where do you take the life point after you take it away, d'you keep it? Put it in the pile?? I ended up just putting it in the pile cause then it'd be too easy to get to the pre-op.

It was fun.

Changed my sheets, I have to get a new comforter.

I want a dvd recorder, my mom's gonna let me get one.

Gizmo's sick, he's got runny nose, a bit of fever, but still... he just couln't leave the mob alone!! I couldn't mob the floor, he kept running after it. He's asleep now though, good thing.

New year resolution... um... lose weight?? (after all that indulgent I definitely need to get them all off)

More drawing, more writing.

Definitely, more of the last two.

Watching : Charlie and Chocolate Factory

So, I hadn't update my blog in a long while due to...

1. I somehow screwed up the layout I made, it was the blog's code that I didn't get right so nothing get posted.

2. my comp was dead for a few days and I didn't get the time to figure out what I did wrong so...

3. I was, am, and will be BUSY AS HELL!!

Also I use the template provided by Blogger cause I don't have time for a new layout right now. clean and simple, it's ok though I'll figure it out what went wrong.

Didn't see The Chronicles of Nania : The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe cause I was too busy doing the damn work, I couldn't even get satureday free!!

well, I saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I liked it.

I reread the book again just for the hack of it. At the same time I bought a used book Intensity by Dean Koontz, I saw the miniseries on Fox a few years back and I'm wondering if they got that on DVD since I found a lot of the miniseries ended up on dvd, which is good.

Hey Cin, are you moving yet?

Ok, I wish I was anywhere but here right now. Things just never seem to slow down. I'd like to just live alone, really, I would, it would've been so much better. My idiot of a sister just get into trouble, again. She should know better but nooooo... she just has to and my parents went nuts with her. Man, I wish I was by myself. I told my father I never did want a sister or brother, they are just more trouble than they are worth. My parents never really take care of us themselves, they have someone else do it. I was like an orphan with bank account, I do what I want, buy what I want, I just never really go crazy with it. Thank god for them I guess. I blew up in their faces every now and then, just because I can't stand what they do, especially about my sister. I mean, let;s we all be blind, that's how they want. And well, I blew up and tell them fuck no, I'm not that stupid and I won't pretend to me.

Ok... enough ranting..

God damn phone company.. took them forever and more to get back to me. I should just cancel the damn phone and get a different company, really, this one just fill with incompetend idoit, they can't even answer my question. I just get my ADSL back today, after a week, I do understand that sometimes nature make it hard, or just interrupted the service but get it back up jackass! Anyhow, if it happens again I'll be sure to tear them a new one.

New layout, yeah... almost done.. actually it was done once and I didn't like it so I make another one.. big fun!! Tonight I'll slice and dice and put it up.

Well, it's been a while... been busy, very very busy.

I wish it would slow down and I get to relax...

if wishes were horses... blah blah blah...

I got a car.. yeah I know.. I didn't think I was gonna get one.. didn't think I really care if I get one or not. Except the whole having to wait for other people, I was fine with the bike cause I can get pretty much all over town that way.

It's Honda Jazz:Cool.. black, with all available options on it. Pretty cool, pretty compact too. Just got it like a week ago. I'm gonna have to get all the windows tinted but that can wait. So, list of things to do for the car...

tinted windows (40% I think)
central lock
new cd player (possibly, maybe not.. I can live with the one came with the car, really, I'm not that bad...)
cd holders (I got one from before.. I guess that will do for now)

Ok, I got CSI season 5
CSI Miami season 3
ST:VOY season 1

I'm gonna go watch those now.

Watching : Chobits

Ok, I got my PSP on Wed, my cousin went to Hongkong on Friday and came back on Monday. I asked her to get me a PSP if the price was lower than the stores we've been asking. She knew what she was suppose to get, a Sony PSP region 2 with 1.5 firmware, of couse for some reason she didn't ask for much details I guess she saw that it was region 2 and version 1.5 she got it and not realize that it was 1.51, but since I already got it and opened the packaged and everything I'll have to make due with what I have. So now I'm thinking of just update it to v. 2.0

I like it though, it's a pretty shinny new toy.. My mom didn't know yet, well, I'm not sure if she knew, I mean I said it but I'm not sure she gets what I was telling her. However I'm gonna be completely broke from this. Been spending a lot of money on models too.. I mean.. I got a set of Hellsing and then I got a bunch of anime dvd. Now my mother wanted models.. so I basically been getting some for her.. (not my money, but well.. ya know ) She got a set of 4 girls small ones.. like 2" model.. and I got her a set of Cardcaptor Sakura with 5 of them and I got a 1/18 scale of Fumiko for her. I'm looking at another set of 3 from Gundam, and a set of 2 from Tenjou Tenge. Will cost quite a bit of money but when you get to the store and you just have to have them. I mean, WOW. They got everything from Magic the Gathering card, every set every booster set... so anyone want let me know. And she got tons of models.

Anyway, now I just want PSP games.. I like technologies, if you didn't notice it already. Been spending lots of money lately though I don't know.. oh well, after getting a game I think I'll just not buy anything else and watch all the dvd I got and finish a game or something.

'this is me with the words on the tip of my tongue and my eyes through the scope down a barrel of a gun.'

Playing : Need for Speed on Nintendo DS

Ok, I went and asked the price for PSP and well, we found that there's this store selling for less than the other stores I was asking by quite a bit of money and we didn't even start bargaining yet. My cousin is going to Hongkong so I'm waiting for her to check out the price of it there for me. If she can get it cheaper there I'm gonna have her get it for me, if not well, I know where I'm gonna get it now.

I got more anime today, I got Kujaku, 3x3 Eyes Sasan, Ghost in the Shell the series, Tenjou Tenge the movie. And on Monday I got Argentosoma, Tenjou Tenge the series, Chobits, and the week before that I got Bakuretsu Tenchi. I'll start watching Kujaku first, Argentosoma got left at the store so I can watch it during the day. Well, all in all I'm a happy camper. I got my mom a set of model ( the 2" ones ) there're 4 in the set, and also I got a 1/18 scale model one for her. The girl that is selling the stuff gave me pretty good price for it, so she said. But then I do understand, I usually don't bargain too hard for things, we all live on profits, if you get nothing out of a sale, what would you live on.

She showed me a Berserk model which cost like 13,000 and I WANT ONE!!! Man, I just don't have the money, although the next time I go there ( which will not be next week ) I'm gonna ask her about that NBC Jack in Santa costume with the Reindeer. She also got the set of Kingdom Heart, but she missed Jack, she said some girl bought that one with a pretty high price (said she was crying and stuff, she lost someone else's model so she had to get a replacement ) Too bad I would love to get that set.

Anyhow.. I post the first part of my new Fuffy, it's an Uber inspired by Sleeping Beauty and I got like 1 comment on it. I'm guessing no one likes it, I guess I'll just write and post it on my site only.

Well, I'm gonna go watch movie now... all the sleeping in the car with my neck getting all stiffy make me tired.

Watching : Bakuretsu Tenchi

So, today was the second day that I went in for class, yeah yeah yeah, class... It wasn't my idea but it wasn't a bad one, seeing how they won't be sending me to German for it. It's a class at School of Gemological Science (I think that was it SGS) So, I almost poke my eyrs out while looking for all the blemishes in the diamond.. man, talk about headache, my head hurts afterwards. And they told us that we'll get use to it and later we'll be looking at it with the loope, so it'll be worse. Anyhow...

We went to the market where they sell all kinds of model and games and stuff.. half of the shops were close, but well, I got a set of Hellsing model.. Arucard, Seras Victoria, Integra Wingates Hellsing, Walter C. Dolness, Anderson, Yan there were so many that I wanted.. also there were a set of Kingdom Heart one, but the ones they showed weren't for sale and the one they got was missing 1 figure, so it was out. I should've gotten Star Wars ones too.. and also Batman, and Berserk.. I just didn't wanna blow all my money. There'll be next time. I hope. I also got a set of DVD Bakuretsu Tenchi, I got all 24 ep loaded before, and the quality was good with English sub.. this one didn't have it, but I just want a set that will be nice to look at I guess.. I tend to lose the cd I burned cause they all look the same.

Now I want my Book binding book, Witch Hunter Robin dvd set. Oh well...

Watching : The Gathering

I've been carrying this spiral notebook ( the cover was hard so it was ok to be tossed around ) the cover was purple which I don't like but since it's gonna be taking some abuse I didn't care. I might feel like I shouldn't be doing that if it was other color, say blue for example. I've also tucked a fountain pen into the spine so I can find something to write with.

So... I got this idea when I thought of a novel that is base on 'Beauty and the Beast' story (not disney) and then I thought of Sleeping Beauty and I got an idea of a new Uber for Fuffy... yeah.. Sleeping Beauty. I wrote a page or so of it and then I stopped to write down some guildline for me.. a plot so I won't get all frustrated at the end. I think I got it now, a bare bone guildline for the story.. :) So next.. I'll be writing and posting it in parts.. I guess I'll do chapter thing this time. :)

It feels kinda good to be doing something creative after not having the time or the energy to do them for so long. I got Neverwinter Nights and well, slowly playing it, I'm not familiar with D&D and not really proficient with RPG games... as long as I don't get headache playing, I'll move on to the next game.. :) Just building up some tolerance here.

Well, bed now, cause I should watch the movie when I left it on.

Watching : Man of the House

I finished with Post Mortem the day before and well, I'm looking to get the next book, I think I spend more money on Manga, books, movies than I do anything else. I recently got the entire series of Chobits in a boxset (manga not the anime) and I got Pitaten from 1-4, and I'm gonna have to go back to get the rest, in the interest of getting a complete series. God Child is finished and I still don't know where am I gonna get the entire thing. I kept asking and they kept saying that they don't know if they can find it for me. And there's also the confusion of different title to each part while they all are the same series.

I'm gonna use the 'Brand' bottle ( chicken essence ) for glass etching, the bottle is about 2" high and the area I can etch is about 1.5" I already got the sticker on and cut out a 'B' for Buffy now I'm working the mechanic of etching a glass bottle out in my head. Do I wanna cover the rest of the area up and then dip the bottle into the acid or do I wanna just set the bottle over some clay and then make a wall surround the area and pour the acid into it. I guess I'll do the later cause it'll be less work that way. Now if I only can find the damn clay!

Well, off to see the rest to the movie and get the dogs in...

Reading : Post Mortem [ Patricia Cornwell ]

I finsihed HP: tHBP the death of the character surprised me.. although I can see how it would set up the last book, from here on it'll be even more difficult for Harry, I can't wait to see the last installment of the series. And it'll be another year.. HA!

I got the book through a bookstore here there are a few chain store that would sell them in English, what I didn't like was that I got the British one, they got 2 covers for the book, they didn't even ask which one I wanted.. I opted for the child's cover cause my other ones were. But I would really like American's version of it. Apparently my aunt got me a copy too.. so it's cool, if not I can always cough up another 750 and get another copy.. which I'm incline to do just for collection purposes.

So, now, back to a new layout, I ought to upload it tonight..

I haven't blog anything lately because I'm doing a new layout for the blog and this one feature Gizmo just when he was clear, which is a rare thing seeing how he likes to go stomping in the fish pond. I'm sure some Koi fishes of ours died of heartattack at this furry dog suddenly landed near them.. poor fishies.

anyhow it's almost done and so, you'll see.

Hey Cin, ya playing Guild War with G too?? I'm looking into it, I'm not sure if it's gonna release here anytime soon.. if not I might have my aunt send me a copy... it'll really suck if I can't get one.. maybe I should ask my cousin about it. ummm... My brother is into that Raknarok game... I never was all taken with games, but there are some I would play just to see how it is. Maybe I'll enjoy this one.

I went to see War of the World today and well, got the seat that was a little too close to the screen for my liking. I usually don't go to the movie on weekend as a rule, due to the fact that I don't like dealing with a lot of people and the price is always higher than weekday. I like spending less and deal with less people, better seat and just generally less things to be annoyed about.. call me antisocial.

Got new book, A Scarpetta Novel : Trace on Sat and I read some of it already. I should've started from the beginning, except I don't know which is the beginning. I read Cruel and Unusually before this and Trace is the latest and I found that even though the books can be read separately the events in the story are continuation and not in a small way. Thus I missed a lot of background info that I need to understand a lot of things.. I guess going back and start from the beginning will be a good idea. But I am lack of fund right now I have to watch what I spend, since I spent a little too much last month. I don't wanna be asking for more money even though I certainly can.

I'm slacking off at the store, but I do feel kinda burn out which is suck majory. It's like I don't have time for anything else anymore. Man, I miss the good old day.

Now I'm looking forward to see Fantastic Four although I don't like Jessica Alba. I don't think she's particularly good in a role of tough girl, she just doesn't look that way to me. I never bother with Dark Angel while it was on air. Anyhow, I can't wait for the next HP, only 12 days away.

Next movie of SMG Southern Tale oh yeah, I really can't wait to see her on big screen. Me think she's adorable and she's great in her role..

the more that we take
the paler we get
I can't remember what it is
we try to forget
the tile on the floor
so cold it could sting
in your eyes there's a place
warm with remembering

for you to go and take this and smash it apart
I've gone all this fucking way
to wind up back at - back at the start

the closer we think we are
well it only got us so far
have you got anything left to show
no I don't think so
the sooner we realize
we cover ourselves with lies
but underneath we are not so tough
love is not enough

well, it hides in the dark
like the withered vein
we didn't give it a mouth
so it cannot complain
we never really had a chance
we'd never really make it through
I never think I'd believe
I believed I could get better with you

ummmmmm.... what's to bitch and moan about...

oh yeah...

My aunt..

My mother's younger sister.

Well, my mom got 2 sisters, both younger, and one of them help babysit the toddler right now, and the other one... well, the other is basically being nothing but an old, over weight, sour grape. She bitches about everything, she even bitch about a puppy that was sitting quietly on a table top (due to the fact that the reception didn't want him to run into the street or someone took him) She told the receptionist to call the store at 7:30 PM and tell me to come pick up the dog, I mean, I'll be home at 8PM! What the fuck was her problem?

I don't like people that thinks just because they are sick or obese they have the right to bitch out about everyone else. I told her to fuck off a couple of times. She thinks everyone has to sit and listen to her, well, she got another thing coming. I don't care if my mom thinks she should be given that allowence cause I don't. She doesn't fucking do anything I don't see the reason to keep paying her. She just keep talking shit and generally being useless. Funny thing is, she seems to think that everyone owe her something.

She's a joke.

On another note, what is up with Gizmo today. He's been barking up the storm even when I put him in the bathroom, which is his usual sleeping place ( den ) he kept trying to come out, which I can't let him, cause he would take that as a permission to do it again. Well, now he's quiet, but man...

Patience is a virtue.

...

I'm not very patient then.

LOL

So, my desktop is back and well, it was the powersupply and mainboard (I think it's the powersupply that killed the mainboard) anyhow it's back.. but I'm loading stuff on here so I'm gonna use laptop for now till all the loading is done.

What's been happening... ummmm...

I'm busy, I have no creative juice.. I have ideas too many and I don't know where to start really. I wanna do too many things at the same time.. I wanna start making a book and well, I need to make some paper first which will need a day or two to get it right and more to make lots of it.. although I think I'm gonna go get some notebook (the thick, thick one they use for accounting) and get like 3 or 4 and then bind them together and make cover so I can write shit in it... I have way too many notebooks laying around already though.. LOL but I wanna do it anyway.. I wanna still have my bookbinding skill thank you very much. If I don't do it I'll forget the feel of it. I guess that's the main reason.. and also I like thick, thick books with good cover.. I binded a few books and I do like them, but they are not very thick the way I like them and they weren't for me.. like the alphabet book I made for senior studio.. they weren't for me, they were for project. I wanna do one for me..

I guess I'll need to list what I wanna do and then see which one I wanna do first.

Oh yeah, I think I'm gonna draw another B/F first before I do more writing. :)

Want : new pair of Oakley

Yeah, my old pair's getting a little roughen up... but that's usual, it's better than my last pair anyway.. LOL

My mother is mad at me, she was on and on about shit that I don't need to hear. Ya know, like the gossip. I don't need to know gossips to work. She has no information, just something people told her and guess what it annoyed the hell out of me. So I scolded at her, I just wanted her to shut the hell up and so she was mad. And I DON'T CARE. Fucking grow up already. All she does is bringing up old stuff, old stories and they are just not true. She kept saying she knows, truth is she doesn't. She doesn't know shit and I know she's my mother and I shouldn't be saying this but SHE SHOULD REALLY SHUT UP. I'm sick of this shit and I'm gonna have to throw it in her face if she doesn't stop. Maybe I'll just stay home tomorrow and fucking die in my room or something. Like I don't have enough shit to do.

I'm writing something.. cause I remember 'Back to Salem' and I like the idea, so I'm gonna take it and run with it.. see what will come out, if it's good, it'll get posted, if not well, I'll keep it to myself..

I wanna see Mr&Mrs Smith, also War of the World. Batman Begins.. I remembered seeing poster for 'Dark Water' not sure I wanna see another horror though, especially when they don't have anyone I interested in.. we'll see.

Gizmo is growing like weed and so is the new one.. man...

They are sleeping in my bathroom.. cause well, I wanna cornered them off so they don't make messes all over the house, now they seemed to know that they have to do their business outside.. but if I don't let them out, they still would go anywhere they could.. but they are puppies.. gotta be patient and all that.

watching : Bring it On

I think I broke my desktop, I mean I was on it and I heard a pop before the whole thing went dead... so it's logical to conclude that it's BROKEN!!! I'm on my laptop right now and it's no fun cause I can never really type comfortably on this thing. Anyhow, it'll get into the shop in a couple of days... maybe Sat cause I get a day off.. man, I really don't have any money right now.. and I hope I don't lose anything on that, I still got some anime I didn't get to watch yet on there and some stuff I did on photoshop as well as some writing.. this gonna suck.

Hey Cin how ya doing?

Hey Helga.. glad to have you back..

Watching : Taking Lives

New toy : Nintendo DS (silver)

I don't play games much as a rule, but I do like my toys. I actually wanted a Sony PSP but the price is just outrageous so I put that on hold and get something else that is affordable to me right now. Anyway, I'm play Super Mario (cause I missed that game) And I'm gonna order Buffy:TVS game for Gameboy Advance (because DS can play games from GBA too.. )

My head kinda hurt like the rest of me.. my uncle dragged me through an hour of bike riding (in gym what do you call those... biking?? I don't know) and it's been so long that I workout so I'm feeling it now.. anyhow I'll have to keep it up.

Well, I should get back to the movie and maybe some sleep.. My head might feel better that way. Oh yeah, maybe I'll change the movie.

Listening : Flaw

I saw SW: Episode III today and it was good, and it would've been better if I didn't feel like my bladder was about to bust half way through the movie. I actually sat through it without running out to the bathroom. I mean, it happens every bleeding time I went to the movie. I get really annoy and I shouldn't have that glass of coke when I went in, but I use to have that much water to drink and be ok for several hours, it just one of those things. I hate it. It was like Lord of the Rings : Return of the King all over again. I needed to go to the bathroom then too and I sat right through the movie holding it.... OK.. TMI I know.. LOL

Mom got a new pup, he's all black with white on his four feet and a little splash of it on his chin and chest. He's a mix Shihztu and Poodle, he has a face of a poodle and a body of a shihtzu, so... no cutting of the tail. He's pretty cute and he stuck on Gizmo like shadow.. LOL.

I want Nintendo DS and I'm getting one.. :) I wanna know if the games for it has region code like PS2 and XBox games or not.. if it does it'll be really suck. But I'm getting it anyway. I'm a spoiled brat, everyone knows that.

Listening: The Punisher OST

Well, I've been going to the store at like noon the last week or so.. cause my dad got my sister to go open the store so I didn't have to pick my ass up early in the morning after I had maybe 4-5 hours of sleep.

My mom is getting a new puppy, someone is offering it to her, so she accepted, tomorrow the pup will be here, I'm not sure how that's gonna work, cause well... Gizmo is still a pup, last thing I need is 2 puppies trying to kill each other.. and not to mention we got 2 poodles already. I don't know what's my mom was thinking.

I get Giz a bath today, cause he looked like a dirty kitchen rag, took some pics for the new layout for this too.. maybe a couple of days and I'll got it up.

Hey, Cin, how ya doing??

Wednesday my friend came over with her roommate and they stayed till Saturday, they were actually here for some seminar (cause they interned at the office at school) And so I told her to come over and stay at the house. We had fun... mostly just catching up and she told me about my other friends.. normal typical chats when you don't see each other for almost ten years.

She was so taken with Gizmo.. LOL.. well, both her and her roommate they love dogs. I gave her a bunch of mp3 and we watched movies. My idea of time off.. never ask me to go to some club cause I won't go.

Gizmo has been sleeping in my room, he doesn't like hot weather.. but well, when you got a dog with that much hair, it's to be expected.. he eats a lot and almost everything.

Hey Cin!! How ya doing?

I've been so busy with work, but I should be use to it by now.. although my father made my sister go to the store in the morning to open it so I don't really have to be hurry in the morning anymore.. now I just take my time and get up late.. no later than 10:30 though. Still, it was much better.

I got a couple pages of DL written, a little more and I'll be able to post. I should write faster than this but with my friends over I didn't really get the chance to write. But I will now and I need to make time for some workout too.. I need that or I'll go crazy.

Well, it's my day off today so last night I went to bed at around 5 AM. I was reading Claire McNab's book, Detective Inspector Carole Ashton series : Fall guy, and at the same time I was reading Laurell K. Hamilton's A Stroke of Midnight. (yeah I like Andais .. she's insane!)

I was trying to write also, and I did write about a page or so. I've been neglecting it lately and I shouldn't. I decided that from now on, I'm gonna spend an hour everyday just writing, drawing, collaging. It'll be good for me mentally. I know I needed that. Exercise my imagination, I should say.

I just got a haircut today, and every time I get my haircut they always, always tug at my earring.. and damnit, it hurts!! Well, I don't get my hair cut as often as I would like, but I got it all layered short, which is good cause it's hot here.. getting to be really really hot now, I hate heat! I guess it's a good thing I stay in air conditioned room most of the day.

Well, off to do a bit of writing.

Anyone know how to make a fishtank?

Watching : CSI:miami

Gizmo is getting big and he chews on shoes, not my shoes, my sister's and well.. it's kinda funny, the other night he chewed on her slippers, the Shingansen one.. the eyes and stuff were everywhere.. And he just laid there in the middle of it and looking all innocent, like nothing is wrong in the world..

Nothing is wrong in his world.

Got Tsubasa Chronical ep 1 2 3 loaded and burned last night. I'll watch it today.

Got my books too.

A Stroke of Midnight : Merry Gentry series (Laurell K. Hamilton)
Lesson in Murder : Detective Inspector Casole Ashton series (Claire McNab)
Fall Guy
Wizard of Isis (Jean Stewart)

Musashi No.9 Vol. 1-11
Kurogo
and a couple others that I don't know Japanese or English titles.

I'm gonna have a few books to occupy me for a day or two. ^_^

Watching: The OC

Well, I've been having the dizzying instances throughout the day for several days now and I don't like it. Make me think of something serious. I mean I've had little sleep for a period of time before and I never get it like this. It's not enough to knock me over or anything, but enough to annoy the hell out of me.

Work sucks, but that's the fact of life now.

I'm trying to do get me time, but it didn't seem to happen except late at night and now after I told my mom about the dizzy thing she told me not to go to bed late anymore.. yeah ok.. I need some time for myself too!!

she didn't get it though.

*sigh*

Today : Day off

So, I got the glass etching done and it came out pretty good, except where the glue residue is left because I couldn't get it all off. But for the first attempt it was pretty good, if I do say so myself.

Well, my homepage is up and guestbook is done!!!

So, what's new...

ummm...

I'm trying my hand with glass etching.. so I got the acid the other day, got a piece of mirror and I'm figuring out the picture that I'm gonna do.. and I got it..

I got Nightmare Before Christmas bag today and buttons, and well, I thought the picture would be perfect for my first project.. and voila! I'm working on it and by late tonight I can get it cut and ready for etching by tomorrow... And yes I'm pretty quick when I decide what I wanna do. It's doing it in class that I don't like. Not when people are looking over my shoulder to see what I'm doing.

I don't think it's all that different from when I was doing reductive conversion or etching for printmaking.

By tonight I have to finish the new layout for my new homepage, cause syntheticsoul is gone! And the guestbook too.. tonight.. tonight.

Gotta get it done tonight.

Watching : The Dead Zone

Ok, news... My current website is being up for renewal and I'm not going to renew it, I'm signing up for a new domain and new package entirely.. so Syntheticsoul.com will no longer be here... in its place there will be CrypticRain.com instead.. it'll take a little while to swicth things over, and this will be here for a little while longer..

My aunt is visiting Thailand and needless to say I had just about enough of her calling me on my cellphone, it's annoying. She did that guilttrip thing alittle too often. I got shit to do and not to mention I am sick at the moment and busy as hell.

Life suck.. oh well.. anyway.. new url for blog will soon be http:crypticrain.com/blog/ but how soon I will let you guys know.

Watching : The L Word

I got The L Word season 1 on DVD today and well, I'm watching it.

I got Nerf Heder Buffy:TVS theme on my phone as a ringer last night and a Hellsing fanart by Solid&ETC as a wallpaper.. Actually, I don't use that much phone like I used to.. but it's good to have it I guess.

Better to have it and not need it than need it and not having it. Or something of that sort.

I still need a digital cam, but then I remember that I still have my uncle's Sony Cybershot, so I guess I don't really need to get a new one right away. Cause I know for a fact that he doesn't really use it, and beside if he does, he would've told me.

He's been playing with my IPaq, or rather her was playing solitair on it, just like my mom.. between the two of them, they got more hour on that thing than I do.. and it's mine for crying out loud.. oh well, I guess if it'll make them happy, besides I just use it to keep all the details and stuff, not like I'd be using it 24/7

I think I'll probably get a new hosting company... I don't remember the company my teacher recommended, which is suck.. but I'll get it eventually, or rather in a week or two cause if I remember correctly, my plan is about up for renewal.. *sigh*

Suggestion anyone??

Watching : CSI:Miami

Hey Jamie!!!

How ya doing, man? How's college life?

Ok, my birthday was all right, I did get my PS2, new one, thinner one. I tradded my old one in and I got a thin one they threw in 10 free games for me.. and I got a new memory card. I didn't really get to play yet, too busy.

Also saw a new Nintendo.. the one with 2 screen, man, that would be so sweet.

They don't have game cube here.. I was kinda disappointed.. I don't understand why they don't. I wanna play Mario!!!

Hey Cin!

Hope your hand is all ok soon. :)

I need to update my layout.. I think I'm gonna come up with something, or maybe I'll just use the one that I already got done, it's a toss up.. I'm thinking about it. I got one with Eliza all set, and all I need to do is coding it.. and another one also almost finished with only slicing left. Um... decisions...

I think I'm gonna be back to blogging more often now. :)

I got a new phone.. Nokia 7610 and I got Nerf Herder Buffy:TVS theme as my ringer!

Oh yeah!

Actually, I have to give credit to Peppermint Patti for suggesting that to me.. LOL.

Now I just want Poltergeist theme and Halloween theme to go with the rest. :)

Ok I better get to bed.. I got the worse case of hiccups.. yuck...

Watching : The Forgotten

My birthday is on the 19th of January, yeah, I'm getting old. I feel old.

I have to trade in my PS2 for a new one.. due to the fact that my PS2 is the one that I carried over from the States and well, the system needs to be modified for it to be able to play here and for me to get the games here.. anyhow.. PS2 got a new version, which is smaller and thinner.. so I'm thinking of tradding my old one in and get a new one. With that I'm gonna have to pay more money for the difference.. Yup, I'm gonna be broke, but with the new one I'll be able to play game from any zone. ('cause they already modified the system)

Anyhow, I'm expecting not to be able to get anything else this month after this..

Then...

My mom said she'll pay for me..

Woooooohooooooooo..

wait, there's a catch, there's a big 'IF' it's not too expensive.. yeah I guess I'm gonna end up ditching out some cash as usual. You'd have thought I got use to paying thing for myself after 8 years in the States and noone for me to ask things from. Man, my birthday's gonna be just as bad as always.

Listening : Broken [ Seether ]

Well, a greeting card arrived today from insurance company for my little brother (the annoying pest that thinks he can just slide through school and not really paying any attention, I think if you open his head you'll only see info on games.. and not much else) And well, I liked the illustration so I'm gonna use it for blog layout.. I'm gonna try to get it done and coded tomorrow, actually, it should be.. today since it's 3:15 AM already. LOL

I've been busy.

I want Sony Handycam and well, apparently my uncle is going to buy it for me.. 'cause I don't have any money and I didn't wanna be asking my parents.. I could, of couse and my dad would say he'll just take so much out of my pay and stuff.. in actuality he might or might not.. depends.. it's not like they gonna let me starve to dead or anything, well, it's a possibility.

But my uncle said he's gonna get it for me.. under the condition that he can borrow it. I said sure, not a problem. I think it's because he's pissed at his in law.. he said if he can spend that much money on people that can't be fair and help him out then he can spend on his niece ( me ) since my dad helped him a lot. And being me.. I'll take what people give me. I mean, you don't turn down free stuff. Besides I didn't ask for it. My dad mentions it.. and my other uncle said he's gonna get me it, except my mom cut him off while he was saying it and he's my mom younger brother so you can see how that one went..

Yup, I got zilch!

I don't know, if I actually get it, we'll all know then, won't we.

Besides, my uncle was drunk at the time, he might forget all about it when he's sobered up.

Man, should I keep my fingers crossed so someone actually get it for me for my birthday? Early birthday.. cause well, it's still another month or so.

I hate my birthday by the way, it usually suck beyond belief.

let's hope we get through the new year.

Tomorrow or rather today is a day off.. yeah I got those twice a month, so I'm gonna try to make the best of it.. be it the day I sleep it all off or doing something productive.

Ha ha ha.

I gotta clean though, and then do the blog layout and do some writing. Shit piled up when you don't have time.

There should be more than 24 hours a day, or maybe I should require less than 8 hours of sleep.. something like 3 hours would give me time to do things.

Or I can just lock myself in the room once I get back from the store and pretend the rest of the house don't exist.. um.... that one has potential.

Watching : Spiderman 2

Well, I finally got my ADSL, much better, let me tell you. I was about had it with the damn sattlelite.. I got kicked out so many times it's not even funny. I guess when you came from Cable where you are constantly on, you can't take anything less, cause it'll drive you crazy.

Anyhow, this thing isn't as fast as what I had before, but it'll have to do for now, seeing how it's the fastest I'm gonna get in this place, maybe in a year we'll get up to speed, I'm waiting for the day.

Work, well, as busy as always, I'm trying though.. it's not that it's so busy, it's the limited access I got on my comp. I can't do any writing if I don't have the comp kinda thing. Well, I use my sis's laptop while I'm at the store, I just can't get online with it, cause I'm too lazy to get out and get a phone line.. LOL.

I play badminton with my dad everyday, 30 min a day. It's fun and well, afterwards you feel like you've been running in the rain, cause you really are sweaty, like your entire clothe got soaked. Fun.

I found that I can order books through a bookstore here.. a plus.. big plus. I hate having to ask people to get them for me.. seeing how it's such a drag. This way, even though I spend a bit more on it, I don't have to owe anyone a favor. That tend to get ugly.

Well, I'm loading stuff, I think I'm gonna just leave it running tonight so I get them all done. :) Bed time.

Nite nite..

Oh yeah, hi to everyone... :)

Cindy!! How ya doing???

Helga.. miss ya kitty...

Yo, Jamie!

Hey Baby G! I'm thinking of christmas present for ya.. :) How about a little 'faith'

Hi Psy, whacha want for X-Mas??

Listening : This Photograph Is Proof [Taking Back Sunday]

Happy Halloween!!!!!

I got my mom and my sister a bag of Kisses.

Well, it's not a big thing here in Thailand so.. ya know.. no fun. Salem would be jumping with people, witches, gouls, goblins, monsters, vampire and such and man, it would be fun to be there.

Not that I ever get the patience to be there while I was in MA anyway. LOL

Happy B-day for my best big Sis. :)

Happy B-day psy!!

I've seen THE GRUDGE and all I can say was.. SMG was ADORABLE!!!

God it's so good to see her on big screen. It was great, she was awesome!

And in that bubble jacket and jeans and pony tail... I was in heaven (except that whole scary thing)

Hi to everyone. I've been so busy it's not even funny. Work hasn't let up for me, if anything it just got worse. My books still on the floor of my room and haven't been arrange or anything. I don't even get time to do my own laundry and I don't like other people doing mine. Only cause I have to wait for other people.

A lot of time I wish I never've left.

I don't like to deal with unreasonable people and stupid people. Just make things worse.

I'm playing badminton with my dad everyday for 30 min.. and it's 30 min straight of nothing but hitting the birdy as hard as I can and make sure it reach the back of the court everytime from my spot at the back.. trust me 30 min is more than enough. A game would've been less exhausted than this, cause you get a time out while serving. This you just smacking the thing back and fort and serve without looking where it has to land you just have to hit it right.

More workout.

I actually want the weight machine and such and also a trademill.. cause it'd be nice to get to workout like that.

I don't even get to think about karate.. sad really. I love my black belt.

Life suck and then you die.

Ah....

It's been a long while that I get to update. Only because I've been so busy with everything, what else is new, right? I mean, I'm still trying to learn while there's no one that actually know what the hell they are doing to teach me.. and who the hell am I suppose to be learning from? And things are quite messy and I can't really get things organize.. nope, not a thing. I'm trying though. Which is still not good enough.

We got the equipments for the security camera.. although they are not yet in place.. in a day or two they will be.

Then there a bunch of other things.

High season is coming and we are not ready, well, we better be, I guess..

Big Hello to everyone.. I don't have the time to contact you, but I miss you guys. :)

-_- *tired*

Ok, so I should be getting ready and out the door by now, but I'm still brushing my teeth!!

Anyway, the annoying thing with the screen solution is over and done with, now I'm figuring out if I wanna sync my ppc with my laptop or my desktop, or should I do both... and I also left my sister's laptop at the store due to the fact that it'll get used that way. (mine doesn't have thai and to type in the details it's just insane.. I mean I can and it'll be just for me, I'd like other people to read it too.)

I shoulda get that book on ppc yesterday if not for just the instruction then for the games.. not that I play I mean, my mom probably will.

Ok, gotta go for now... getting dress and all that.

Watching : Buffy:tVS ep Gingerbread

I've been very busy lately. It seems as if I can't get the time to sit down and do the things I wanted to.

Actually, I get the afternoon to kinda goof off.. but due to the lack of privacy I couldn't really write or do any of the collages like I wanted. Maybe I'll just go and get an empty room and then just sit down and write. I think that'll work better.

In the past month, I've had to:
- lectured my father over the damn project and people that borrowed money. He said to look at people on the bright side.. I said nope.. trusting people usually lead to disappointment. So, I'm being the pessimist to his optimistic view of people. However, he knew I'm right and he can't argue with me.

- argued with my mother over my sister's behavior. She made excuses for that lazy ass and I have no patient for it. She cries over the stupid thing. She's an idiot and until she grows the fuck up, I won't think otherwise.

- oversee the damn project while my mother gives me shit over things that's not my fucking fault in the fist place.

Tomorrow agenda is writing, I'm gonna go hide in vacant room and write to my heart content... or making collages, possibly both at the same time.

I tried to load XXXHolics but man, just couldn't. Can't wait for ADSL, seems like sattlelite didn't go that fast, well, it's faster than dial-up, as for loading from bittorent, I'm not sure if it was me or there was no one to load from... grrrrrrrr..

Listening : my niece whining...

I've been home almost a month now and well, I'm just trying to grasp the situation. And pretty much have to clean up other people's mess. Mainly my father.. ain't that suck. Now he's out of town, although I did tell him that from now on, everything has to go through me and no one borrow any money. They all can go to hell.

I'm just being really harsh, but the situation required it. I mean, my mom is going through the freaking roof now. Last thing I want is for her to get to that point and get sick.

I got the layout for this blog ready tomorrow so I can get a new layout up. I mean I like this layout cause it's SMG, but it's time for a new one.

Hello to everyone, (if anyone read this that is) I'm back!!

Let's see...

today I got 2 combinations, 2 kenpos.. combination #25 and 28 and 2 black belt kenpos.. which I better remember, although I think I will remember them better than my brown belt ones.. cause they gave to me without any designation at all.. that didn't help..

they were really cool, I like them. Damage to the max. :) FUN!

I better get to bed.. before I fall asleep on the keyboard, that would be embarrassing and not to mention.. chance of keyboard being shorted out from drooling.. that's worse. LOL

I went and saw The Chronicles of Riddick the other night.. I loved it! Although I think that Vin Desel suited the role that didn't require much talking.. he always has that same tone.

I enjoy the movie though, a lot.. even though it was at 12:25 and I was up all day I didn't fall asleep on it.. which is definitely a plus.

I love all thos ships and costume.. very H.R. Giger.

On the other note.. I will be moving by the 23 of this month.. I'm going home!!

Elphie!!

Thank you, I was all nerve, ya know big ball of nerve and nothing else.. they warned me not to eat too much before hand and guess what, I had a couple chips and that's it.. I was starving, my foot hurts.. exhausted.. it's a good test though..

Thank you again.

Cin!

HOw ya doing?? Thank you.. :) I've been looking forward to it, now everyone in class has to bow to me. HEHEHE..

I have cold now.. what a perfect timing.. at least it wasn't during.. or it would've been really bad.

Sleepy now..

As of today, I'm a 1st degree black belt...

YEAH!!!!

Of course my foot hurts as hell and I got bruises all over my arms, but that's ok. It's all good. Now I just wanna sleep..

Listen : Superstar [ Tegan&Sarah ]

I was watching Buffy:tVS season 4 dvd, the set which Baby G got for me with X-Files season 8 dvd set.. Love ya G. And I was watching 'This Year Girl' of course.. I couldn't resist cause Faith was in it!!! I watched it with commentary with Douge Petrie.. who was the writer. He said 'All she dreams about is Buffy.' in Faith's dream sequences, and how Faith couldn't stay away from Buffy. I mean.. subtext anyone??? Ok, so he said it was more sisterly, sibling rivalry kinda thing, but come on!!

Anyway, I just thought it was funny. But then we get to see Buffy as a badguy, cause that's how she was in Faith's dreams. Eliza looked good!! And SMG looked soooooooooo good.. well, both of them.. hehe..

Ok, in about 2 weeks I'll have my black belt test.. I don't know if I'm ready for it.. I mean, I've been so busy and stressed out that I can barely do anything.. and when I get to do anything I'm just tired. Like today, I could do 8 rounds.. (ok, in that I mean.. we start with 8 laps around the dojo, 8 jumping jack, 8 push-up, 8 sit-up then we work our way down.. 7, 6, 5, you got the idea...) I got to about 4 and I was just dead.. I mean I can probably push for it, but I could feel it.. so I stopped for a breather and let them continue.. ( of course Sensei Stella happened to knock me with her knuckles... right at my temple.. I felt the migrain right then ) I'm so out of it.. this is what happen when I don't really get into class for almost 2 weeks.. 2 stressful weeks of final projects.. We're picking the stuff up on June 1st. Chaos.. let me tell ya, chaos.

Got LotR : RotK.. I'm gonna go watch it now.. hehe..

Baby G got me X-Files season 9 and B:tVS season 4!!! WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!!! In exchange of me drawing B:tVS doujinshi for her.. (well, adaptation of her fanfic 967-Buffy) nice deal I'll say..

Finally, I'm done with school and I mean DONE!!

The final review was on Monday, my time was at 4PM. For senior we have the show over at the gallery downtown, means we have to content ourselves with finding the parking when we go there. There's a parking garage, but I'm not sure where that is.

So, I got there almost an hour early, because I always do. Just in case I got stuck, couldn't find parking I still have time. So I got there and unlike the usual occurance.. they were early. Yup, the committee was early in their review, it's like once in a blue moon, let me tell you. At midterm they started it late.. and I mean late.. 30 min late and when the schedule is 15 min per person.. it didn't help, it was like a mad scramble. But suddenly they were early, maybe they just wanna get it over with, I know I did.

So I got there Amy was 2 persons before me and she was next, so I thought, well, I got about 30 min, which mean I'll be out of there before 4, which is all good.. but then they skipped Gorette, cause she wasn't there, but they were 20 min before her scheduled time. So, they came right to me.

They liked my book.

So, I'm happy about that, I've been dreading it.. and kinda scared. I mean if I didn't get the grade then it's another damn semester and I'm sick of school. Anyway, I got out of there waaaaaaaaaaay before 4 and feeling pretty good. But now I'm just all burnt out.

I did a few sketches for Faith and Buffy to-be comic.. and a new layout for my homepage and writing at the same time. Well, I don't have school to deal with anymore, so it's cool.

dignified in what she does when she sings
the smile that she brings to all of you
unaware of what’s to come, I said tell me:
what’s to come

green is the color of my envy
it’s the color of fame
so I’m gonna write it down
I’m gonna scream it out
and I’m never gonna be the same again

fear is the color you’ve all exposed
now I gotta get up here and prove the importance
of my clothes and my pose I suppose
again

hard core superstar by far
you’re the ultimate star
do you wanna be a superstar?
well that’s what you are
you’re gonna be a star
do you wanna be a superstar?

clever in what she does
competing for the attention
of those people that you know
my whole life revolves around your absence
until I can’t remember
what I was, what I am,
what I know or where I go

every moment was that moment
every day was that day
every second was that second
and I’ve lost myself again
yes I’ve lost myself again

hard core superstar by far
you’re the ultimate star
do you wanna be a superstar?
well that’s what you are
you’re gonna be a star
do you wanna be a superstar?

and soon my face will be on every magazine
then my voice will be on every frequency
take my heart — while you’re at it
why don’t you sign me up to sell me out

hard core superstar by far
you’re the ultimate star
do you wanna be a superstar?

I am my angel 'til death I do
I saw my first angel and it was you

. . . what’s to come?

[ Superstar | Tegan&Sara ]

Ok, I lost my watch... How? I don't know.

It's my navy blue Casio G-Shock Chris got for me in exchanged for me getting her a A-Wire Oakley shades. Yeah... well, she didn't know yet..

So, that was my incentive to go and get my other watch Nautica battery change.. which I did and I'm back wearing that one now. I'm thinking of getting another G-Shock.. the one with Solar power or whatever.. looks pretty good.. I liked it. But it'll be another $150 that I'm not sure I wanna spend. Oh well...

I got another 7 pictures to draw.. I got enough paper I think.. already cut them got 30 pieces. Man, and I freaked over it.. For some reason I got the number 13 pieces in my head.. and well... ha ha.. Hopefully I won't need to take another trip.. but I will know by the end of the week, cause it's almost finish with the drawing, and now it's making sure layout is consistance and I will print them all out.. tomorrow will be writing center visit and get story worked on.. truthfully I don't think they would read it, but hey.. You never know.

Listening : Finding Myself

Ok, it's that time of the year again... yup, crunch time!!! Oh Joy..

Ok, so I got 12 days.. or rather a week, I have to do that so i get things done on time.. in the next 2 days I'll be finishing up all the illustrations and then figuring out the page number and print them.. I keep thinking 13 pages.. and well, nope! it's 28 with the credit and intro and with covers 30.. which mean I'm short on papers.. I'll cut them up tomorrow and figure out how many more sheets I will need. Then the cover and the poster, which will have to wait till all the illustrations are done.. but I can start with the cover tomorrow I think.

Oh happy happy joy joy..

Went to see 'Mean Girls' today, it was good.. I like Linsey Lohan... (if that's how her name's spell) Now I'm just busting my ass trying to get more stuff done.. everything due on the 13.. so I gotta get them done like a week before if possible.. (yeah, right) At least SS stuff gonna have to be done, like it or not.. tomorrow, buying stuff... gotta get some paper..

In the mean time.. I made some collages that probably can be used as wallpaper.. (cause I kept the size at 1024x768) Mistress, Weakness, and my latest Lost

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause Im broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause Im broken when I’m open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough
Cause Im broken when I’m lonesome
And I dont feel right when you’re gone away

Cause Im broken when I’m open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough
Cause Im broken when I’m lonesome
And I dont feel light when you’re gone away

[ Broken | Seether ]

Ok, turned in my stuff for figure drawing today, my advisor still didn't get that damn thing he was suppose to get for me yet, I cut him some slack seeing how it's the advising week still and he had appointment right to about 4pm. No use riding his ass about it.

I'm sleeping...

still enough
although I know you're not begging
still as the thoughts running through your mind
still enough
although I know you're not begging
give me a reason to make you mine

I will devour you
take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
from reaching out so that I can
empower you
for all eternity
it seems to ease my mind
to know that you've brought
meaning to my life

had enough
although I see you're not running
still are the thoughts running through your mind
dead to love
the path that you are now taking
show me the reason to make you mine

run, to where the smallest ray of light will never find you
run, to where you will not need to shield your eyes
run, away from all the soulless, heartless fiends who hound you
run, away and let your memories go blind
when I...

I went to Fogg Museum today, as I planned. Didn't get lost... didn't ask for direction, just sorta walk across Havard yard and look, a nice change. Drew a picture and left. My pencil ran out of lead just as I got almost done, which suck big. Went to Newbury St. Figure I'll get a pair of shoes.. nope, nah-dah.. didn't get no shoes.

I'm gonna go see Hellboy.. :)

Damn my hand... well, actually, it was an accident. So, no one's fault. Sensei Natalia used me as a cushion on Monday night class, she was talking about how to get out of a grab.. fullnelson.. and so she did the one with shoulder roll, with me.. so yeah.. she landed on me, I heard my neck went 'crack' at least she didn't slam me to the ground too..

Final for Figure Drawing... now I gotta come up with something.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr... Maybe I'll do R/C illustration.. gotta be big though, she said has to be labor intensive too.. man, like we don't have enough to do already.

Sat, black belt demo.. Sat night some b-day party. Did I miss anything? Oh yeah.. a trip to Fogg museum.. 2 hours drawing and 2 page paper.

After my 8am class I dragged myself to Boston, had to be in court today... ( as a witness... ) And well, it's been raining here for the past say week.. and so, it was a bad idea to take the T to Boston when you don't know where the hell you are going. I went to the wrong building (result from getting off the subway the wrong station) not that it was much of a problem definitely not on a good day, but not today cause it was raining like hell.. and so I spend almost an hour walking around in the rain looking for the right street..

Needless to say I looked like a drown rat.. LOL.. It was funny but not at the same time since I am sick to begin with and being wet and cold for an afternoon will not help at all.. Man even my boxers were soak.. *grumble grumble* And my sneakers, what am I gonna wear tomorrow.. I really don't wanna break out my doc..

Ok so I updated the layout of Slayers' Dreams cause.. I'm sick of the old layout, but really I don't need a reason for it, lol.. I've been playing a lot with blending and stuff.. so

school... suck..

Sat we're suppose to go to Fogg museum, gotta be there at 10, so there goes my Sat morning of sleeping in. grrrrrrrr..

*sniff* At least I can breathe... barely.

I start to play The Sims again.. don't ask why... I just suddenly feel the urge.. LOL.. I'm crazy like that. I still need to write more.. Just cut another 12 or so pieces of double weight cover stock for R/C illustration. Figure I'll use that vellum for all the text cause I'm not cutting the text too.. too much work. So now.. I'm gonna have to clean my pen again. Everytime I'm using the damn tech pens I have to clean 'em all over again. What a pain.

Oh well.

My head kinda stuffy now.. I'm gonna go watch Buffy:tVS. Welcome to Hellmouth.... hehehe

New layout.. yup.. About time, too. It's Buffy:tVS. Just because...

Ok, 'cause I love Buffy and I love SMG.. (and I love Buffy with Faith)

I'm sick.. cold. I'm sneezing left and right and my head is all stuffy.. arggggggggggggggg..

Oh well.

I had to get up at 7 after falling asleep around 5 AM last night.. LOL.. Then I hauled ass over to the dojo to wait for Sensei.

Tournament was today, both tournaments I might add. I went to the one that was an open tournament. I was kinda fun.. A little unorganized though, but no more than the one I usually go. Took 1st sparring and 3rd form. Not bad I guess. I got home and well, crashed.. LOL.

I really didn't expect to be the only one with the kenpo gi.. (black with red/white/blue stripes along the shoulders down the sleeves and also down the legs of the pants) I mean, I expect more color, instead we got black or white.. there were tae kwon do, kung fu, karate several styles of them. It was interesting to see the forms... although there didn't seem to be that many on them. No one was doing 4 or 5 kata, saw 3 pinan from a black belt and that was it.

7 years of bad luck... I would be more freaked about that had I not broken enough mirrors to last me a life time of badluck already.

Plug for Elphie. Nice Kurai one.. :)

Cin : I am on Spring break right now.. it's a week long break. We get it earlier than high school.. ya know a vacation.

I'm watching Fullmetal Alchemist right now and also ROD.. I liked both of them a lot. Fullmetal Alchemist looked a little too PG for me at first, but as soon as I saw the opening sequence of the first ep.. I changed my mind. So, I'm gonna go watch ep 9 now.. and I got 3 more waiting to be watched later.. seeing how it's already 4 am..

Just finished Willow/Faith wallpaper due to Aby's request, which should get me a story or two.. :) I got another Buffy/Faith one done.. or I think it is, but I'll tweak it a little tomorrow before posting it.. I wrote a little as well, not much, maybe because I couldn't design if I want them to do certain things.. I'll get over that though.. I will post an update on DL before the break is over, at the very least.. or it'll be DL and Frail.. we'll see.

Listening : Last [ NIN ]

I was beyond exhausted yesterday, almost plant my face on the newsprint, which will probably leave me with chacoal all over my face.. not very pretty.. I needed sleep, badly... so I overcompensated it a little by slept really long from last night around 1:30 till well, a couple of hours ago.. so I'm just a bit off right now..

Spring break!!!

God I needed that.. Though I'd be working on projects. Yup, and writing.. no rest for the wicked.. LOL

I am tired as hell... I planned on having 10 pieces done for Monday. So far I got 7 done.. #8 is being cut right now, but I just have to rest my hand.. Though I don't think it'll take too long.. seeing how mostly it was black.. just that little scales thing that would take a bit of a patience to get through, but I got through that rediculously too many crosses and stones done, it shouldn't be a problem.. Now I'm just looking for image of an angel that wasn't too.. I don't know.. I guess I'll know when I found one.

Bed... now.

I'm changing my project a little.. instead of pop-up which will take me for-ever to make, especially when I will have to do mock-up after mock-up to see if it'll work the way I want it to, and if it'll look good and potential of them coming out looking like a work of elemetary school kid is way too high.. I don't know. Not worth trying to ruin I guess.. so I'll still be doing illustration for all 26 letters.. (A-Z Fantasy Illustrations) So, it'll be reductive conversion for all of them.. (sharp B&W cut by hand) I think that's enough work.. don't you?

So I got my first 5 images work in gray scale and sharp B&W ready to be cut.. which I will do at least 1 tonight..

Cin: Thank you.. yeah I feel better.. occasionally I got pissed when she does something like that, but I'm fine now.. Maybe that is why I'm her friend this long.. (other than the fact that I love her to pieces.. but she'll never feel the same) I'm patient... really, really patient. Yes, my 3rd stripe.. now I am officially a 1st degree brown belt.. and will be going for a review in a month then black belt test in June.. I'm scared out of my mind on that one.. LOL..

We sparred a little today, I kicked this guy Joe, the top of my left foot and ankle caught him on his knee straight on.. yeah, so now I'm hopping around on my right foot.. LOL.. I better get back to all that stuff.. man I wish I get the time to write.. maybe I'll squeeze some in after this week.

Ok, so I took a test, didn't do too bad, but not too good either.. I got my 3rd stripe either way, though I should've done better.. oh well.. Do better next time.. I lost it on my last 2 kata.. that was just horrid.. I mean, jeez.. and I had it, I knew I had it.. then it just 1 move that I forgot, make it all crumble.. At least that is done now.. and on to the next thing..

I got an e-mail from her and she said the same old thing.. like always, I didn't reply it because I didn't have anything to say, I mean, she wanted something to read.. and I don't have anything to show her.. so I figure I'll e-mail her back later.. then I went to bed.. and well, you guess it.. another e-mail waiting for me right the next morning, saying I hate her now and she's not gonna bother me again.

WTF!!

I'm suppose to jump when she says jump?? Is that how it work now? She couldn't bother to call me back, but I can't not reply to her e-mail as soon as I got it? What am I? A doormat??!!

This is just f**ked up!!!

Ok, I got to cram in 3 weeks worth of work into this week.. but I got my 1800 words paper done.. so I guess it's not that bad.. ( better than having to do both at the same time ) I have to do a quick drawing of skeleton.. so.. I better do that now..

Finished 'Seduced by Moonlight' I like Andais.. think she's cool.. :) Must be something about woman with power thing.. LOL.

More bruise people! More bruise..

Actually, I should've gotten use to it by now. :D

Got paper to get done.. I set my deadline on Friday, and I got about half of it written. I got 3 weeks worth of sketching and brainstorming to do this weekend.. Alphabet of the Random Objects.. for this damn project.. God I HATE SS.. Unorganized.. hard to find advisor.. this sucks!! I don't even know why they bother with this, I mean it seems like they couldn't make it work, they didn't wanna do the work, not really, but they demand we do 20 hours worth of work for each week, but we went look for them and none, nah-dah, zip.. couldn't find them anywhere.. Not even worth the time spent. I wanna get this done already.

Ok, so she e-mailed me, ask when I'm going to call.. well, I DID call, but she put me on hold.. telling me it's a bad time and call back.. and the same thing.. on and on and on.. and I'm suppose to keep trying? Like I got nothing better to do with my time.. the time that I barely have to begin with. Man.. I'm getting tired of this. The complete different tone in e-mail and actual conversation, but then I should know better already.

Shame on me, I guess.

It's been an ok week... I have bruises to show for for everyday of last week.. Monday just below my ring and pinkie there's a bruise.. Tue.. on my wrist, Wed.. above my index finger from getting bent backward so hard. Thur on my arm.. all on the right.. :) and grand finale.. friday.. a cut on my right eyelid.. Think I got a theme going on.. LOL..

Tomorrow i'll have to work my ass off to get assignment for Web3 done. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

I don't feel so good.. argggg...

Had really weird dream last night.. about me.. and a few friends, they were I guess gonna go swimming or something and I didn't want to, but we were standing at the ledge water up to our waists and one of my friend had to get by me.. so I ducked and she tried to step behind me, I slipped.. fell right in.. and it was like it won't stop and I couldn't see the bottom.. then I kicked something and came back up..

Then I woke up.

Weird.. I don't like it.

Then it was a bunch of other stuff..

Anyway...

Work tomorrow.. bed now..

Oh wait!

Cin : So your keyboard is fine.. good.. :) I got a few more ED and SMG layouts, I just never upload it onto the site.. it was kept as a screenshot for my own record.. I'll show 'em to you though if you want.

I'm playing with images, texture and brushes right now.. one of those things. I'm just trying to find out what works for me and what doesn't. Got B/F wallpapers out of it.. so.. I guess it's a good thing.. LOL.. They are so cute together.

Cin : Yeah, I remembered you mention something about dead keyboard, did you get it replace?

I'm finished with 'Sybil.'

SB said that I'm beyond her understanding, but Psy thinks the world of me.. ummmmmmmmmm.. hehehe..

I'm just weird like that.

Elphie : Glad I could be of help. I order the book instead of going out to get it at the bookstore, don't ask me why.. cause I don't know. LOL.. Should get here in a couple of days. I was just thinking it'll be in by the time I'm done with 'Sybil' but well, that book is done. Very interesting, the insight to the MPD. 11 years.

Shower now.. card in a few.

Reading : Sybil

I'm not going to that gallery opening.. I saw no point in driving 30 min to school and then stay for maybe 30 min to an hour listening to someone talk, then hual ass back to the dojo.. no fun.

I should get back to the book, getting interesting.. I'll probably finish it tonight.. LOL.. in the mean time I should finish up that proposal and also the writing for tomorrow and the 2 paragraphs for Web3. Tonight.. I will.

Laurell K. Hamilton's new book is OUT!!!!! Seduced by Moonlight, a Merry Gentry series. In case someone interested.

I'm suppose to be writing something for my Web 3 class.. but well, I forgot what exactly that was and I couldn't get to my teacher's website to check on the assignment, so I'm flying blind basically. I just need to have something to show for tomorrow.. grrrrrrrrrrr...

Finally, I post second part of Frail.. man, I'm not gonna have that much time to write till the weekend.. which gonna suck.. but whatever. I better get back to that assignment.