Status: clean and quite tired
Listen: Wish [ Nine Inch Nails ]

silent,
only me and my own thoughts
I know you would love to look in
see what's in my head
to know me
to see me
but...

I can't let you see
what's inside of me
cause I'm so afraid...

I am...
not what you expected
I'm not what you thought me to be
don't want to disappoint you with
the real me

you once said
I like to keep things inside
bottled up my emotions
keep it hidden
out of sight
and...

you wanted to see
you want me to let you inside
wanted me to open that door
but I...

can't let you see
what's inside of me
cause I'm so afraid
of what you might see

will you leave if you know
will you be here if I let you

see the demons of my dreams
the nightmares I kept
the madness
haunting me
tormenting...
the real me
so I...

can't let you see
what's inside of me
cause I'm so afraid...

can't let you see

[ X: just one of those days... my head hurts ]