February 28, 2002

Status: watch NIN
Listen: Suck [ NIN ]

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familia sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember eerything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughs
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

[ NIN: Hurt ]


Status: just relaxing and being ignored
Listen: Piggy [ NIN ]

I just NIN live on DVD and I'm pretty happy about it, I would've gotten it when it came out except someone said they gonna get it for me for b-day, didn't happen, think I have too many of that already. I should get The Cell too, since Chris is never gonna send me the one she said she bought for me (and the rest of whatever they were that she said were for me...) From now on I probably have to settle buying things for myself, since no one seems to want to get me anything (and they were for my birthday and christmas, damnit!!) A waste of time to wait for them to get around and get me the stuff, buy it myself, a hell of a lot quicker. Anyway, back to watching..

Status: hungry
Listen: nothing at all, just the sound of fingers tapping on the keyboard

Dr. Cheney was late today, and we were looking at the watch, was gonna leave if she didn't show up before 15 min, but one girl gave her a call and told us that she would be a little late (damnit!) Anyway, so 20 min into class time she got there, apparently got stuck in the traffic. She's just one of those teacher that never out for anything. Well, I got the Monet paper done and sent out last night, it is not done-done, but as finished as I'm gonna get it, I refused to write the last part for her, it should be her choice of painting and her opinion, not mine. ( I woulda pick the Cathedral... first and probably Water Lilies second.) She already got the package that I sent out on Monday, how unfair is that, when someone sent something to me, it'll take at least 7 days to get to me, it is so unfair. (of course she only said that it's because we're match made in heaven and so the postman agree, ???) Anyway, I'm starving but I don't know if I want to get food here.

[ X: this silly game of... ]

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