February 23, 2002

Status: just wandering around the void
Listen: Forsaken [ David Draiman ]

I'm off the doghouse now, apparently. The whole thing wasn't about me in the first place. I guess that's the different between her and me, I don't react to thing purely on emotional level as she does, and so I always stop and considering the damage that I would cost before doing anything (that would mean how much damage I want to cost and also the damage I wanna stay away from) I'm the rational one I guess. Anyway, sometimes that is really suck. Was flipping the channel earlier and then came across some sappy teenage love movie (with Leelee Sobieski, I loved her but I hate the movie) And she was saying some people go through life without falling in love.. and I guess that's true.. but like me.. who fell and well, know that if I get into the race I would lose.. so I take myself out of it, unfortunately --or fortunately depends on how you look at it-- I was still in the reserve area.. I suppose that would be it.. can't get out of it. Isn't it funny how I got my head bitten off the same night that I was told I'm more than just a friend... at the moment I wasn't sure I want to laugh or cry... *groan*

Status: ...
Listen: Forsaken [ David Draiman ]

Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things that I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
And take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Walking Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things that I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
And take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I hate you

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How'd it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I couldn't kill you

I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you made me die inside

[ Slept So Long: Jay Gordon ]

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