August 20, 2002

Status: nice and clean...
Listen: nothing really...

Well, she called today, and I called back. I had to remind her that she needs to return the movies... it's overdue.. (yeah, I knew how she is and still I didn't say anything about it before, I should have) She was shopping, and she asked what color the jacket she should get, naturally, I said black.. (it's black or rust color, I'll go for black) Now I want that pair of Dr. Marten's and black slack and also black shirt. I'll get them, start with the shoes, I suppose. Then she said she'll get a skirt!!! I don't know, but I don't like the thought. I said as much, and she said that I'll like it, that I'll like her in skirt. I said I don't think so... if it's just for me then it might be different, but this definitely not for me, but she will do what she wants anyway, so what does it matter. She kept saying that she doesn't always do what she wants, ri-ight. She asked why am I being such a bitch about it. Well, let see... I don't have a damn clue! I think that she is changing, a lot and it scares me. I guess if she gets to that point of stripping away all that she was, then I'll be a part of that she stripped away. Inevitable, cannot stop, but always trying. She said something like 'involve with a girl.' I'm not sure what she meant. Cause we are not involve. I was just stupefided... Anyway, she said she wanted something, but we went to the movie, me and Jamie... so when she called I was in the movie and didn't answer the phone, I called right back, having left the movie to call and then she didn't answer the phone.. after that she called me back and left a voicemail. I called her after I got home, but I guess she's asleep already. Good.

lost infidelity
we never said a word
so black and white you see
it's all the lies we've heard

in my mind nothing makes sense
I'm nothing you can't have
cracked up to disagree,
that's all we've ever had

you, only you, only you
only you can't be the one

your secret smile so quaint
in memories fortold
laughing so viciously
your concience has been sold

in my face there's no more joy
I'm all that I should be
cracked infidelity
is all you are to me

you, only you
only you can't be the one
only you
only you can't be the one
be the one

we don't talk anymore
we don't care anymore

only you can't be the one

[ Skunk Anansie : Infidelity ( Only You ) ]

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